It’s not you; it’s me. On second thought, it’s definitely you.


I’m in love with my new insulin pump. I just can’t stand my mother-in-law, the infusion set. The spaceship-shaped inserter makes me long for the elegant simplicity of injections. I think the needles in those inserters must be made of irony: injections hardly bothered me, but because I can’t see the needle in the inserter I find it intimidating. I tried looking at the needle before inserting, but that didn’t help. After I had finally convinced myself that the inserter needle was the same size as my syringe needles, I discovered that it was, in fact, bigger. As a result, I hesitate. Not for a few seconds or even for a few minutes. I hesitate an embarrassingly long time. And when I hesitate, sometimes the inserter fires in stages, resulting in a bent cannula and high blood sugar. When I was home for the Fourth of July, I had three bent cannulas in a row. Ew. Triple ew, actually.

To awkwardly extend and twist my relationship metaphor, I’m having serious second thoughts about my infusion set. I just don’t know if it’s “the one.” It’s not you, Animas Insets; it’s me. Actually, on second thought it’s definitely you.

Of course, when I took a deep breath and just squeezed the silly thing, I didn’t have any problems at all. No pain, no bent cannula, and minimal hesitation. Not so bad. Maybe it is just me after all.


About Nel

As a graduate education student, I've come to the conclusion that teaching requires an addiction to caffeine. My favorite caffeinated beverages are coffee, tea, and diet Coke. And when I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes in January 2012, I also came to the conclusion that living requires insulin. I blog about my busy life juggling graduate education courses, a teaching assistantship in my University's English department, and my recent type 1 diabetes diagnosis the The Clumsy Juggler. I do not live in New York City.

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